Wow. The last post I wrote was a year ago. Talk about writers block. Well, maybe not so much a block, eh?
I’m not going to lie, this was a conscious choice. As much as I wanted to type away on my laptop every time another innocent victim was gang raped in India, or the excessive sexism polluted on our TVs day after day, or the ultimate corruption sinking countries with no hope. I can assure you the words appeared themselves in my mind, But I’m afraid I couldn’t
I’m not going to blame “university” nor education for this lack of blogging, because I’m incredibly privileged to be educated and to be able to work at a degree in which I am incredibly passionate about, and perhaps it’s not “education” that has come in the way of it but passion.
Passion is a beautifully excessive and very rich. Whether being passionate is an emotion, or a trait, that is open to discussion, but all I can tell you is I am guilty. I blog, with passion. I study, passionately. But when one overkills the other, that is when it can become dangerous, and so it did. My passion for blogging and for voicing out the oppressed became a priority above my education. And that to me is passion ruining another passion. My grades and performance hindered, and I would rather spend 4 hours researching the Rwanda Genocide than the history of Psychology. What is wrong with that, some of you may ask? Perhaps it is my fault and maybe I should be able to balance it properly? But that’s the thing, I can’t. When I fall in love with something, I am will do that and only that.
For me, blogging became a tool to help all those people I wrote about. I love helping people. It sounds cliche, but I do. Having to chance to spend a life in the service of others well-being is something I want to end up doing. But I would never have an opportunity to do that, if all I do all day (and night) is type away and post on tumblr.
So, here is the dilemma. I have my psychology degree to complete to be able to work along individuals with mental health problems, and hopefully not only help them psychologically but I aspire to contribute in stopping mental health stigma one day. On the other hand, my passion for every innocent soul, life and child being destroyed in countries 4000 miles away from me and through blogging did I feel and sought to help them and raise their awareness. Of course, there are many people who are able to balance these two things, and whilst my passion drives me, it also hinders. Thus, the decision had to be made. I had to stop blogging. It wasn’t something I took lightly, as I ‘tried’ to post pictures every month or so (she says), and my dashboard would still be full of posts on Syria and racism.
But of course, for every problem, there will always be a solution, and fear not my friends, I have made sure there is a medium. I shall not stop writing, nor shall I stop voicing the opinion of the voiceless. At the same time, I shall not ignore my Psychology degree. So, what is the solution you say, well well. How about we get writing + psychology =
NEW BLOG! WHYYYY YES!
So, I have decided I still want to write, that is not going to stop. But if I can make it relevant to issues in psychology as well as society, then I won’t feel as guilty. This is not saying I’m not going to post content like I post on this blog, no sireee. Of course, if there is a bomb being exploded where innocent children are massacred of course I am going to write about it. But if I am able to write topics about what I learn about in my lectures, so homicide and mental illness, control and stress, sexism & ageism at work, mental health , depression, anxiety, and write about them not only psychologically, but socially too because I know it is that “social” side of things which makes things so much more comparable.
And so, that is what I shall do. And for everyone who has messaged me asking about how I am and where I am and just general sweet comments, thank you so much. There is always something beautiful knowing that your words have touched people’s heart, and as long as I can do that to one person I know I will always be happy. So thank you to all you beautiful people for being so kind.
Hopefully, this weekend, I am going to start up the new blog. I am not deleting this blog by the way. This will always be here, and maybe when I graduate in 6 months, it is likely I will have time to post content on both blogs. But I will post the url and details for my new blog hopefully soon, so it would be lovely if my current followers and whoever likes my content would want to check out that one too.
I hope everyone is incredibly good and your life is treating you with a lot of joy! I’ve always been quite political I feel on this blog, and although as a person I am very empathetic I’ve never really shown my background from psychology on RIOT DON’T DIET, but if anyone is ever going through any anxiety or you feel a bit down, then always feel free to send a message. I’m always there to offer advice or a rational outlook to life to anyone whos ever needed it and I work with people with social anxiety, depression and phobias this past year and I’ve definitely learned a lot and how to tackle that voice in your head that makes you believe the worst in yourself.
Well, let me tell you one thing, and one thing only. You are perfect, and never hide your flaws nor your imperfections because it is this that makes you human.
P.s I have really missed this.